Jekyll & Hyde: Internal conflict for John the Savage

'And suddenly the thought of Lenina was a real presence, naked, and tangible, saying "Sweet!" and "Put your arms round me!"- in shoes and socks, perfumed. Impudent strumpet!  But oh, oh, her arms round his neck, the lifting of her breasts, her mouth! Eternity was in our lips and eyes. Lenina. . . No, no, no, no!" John the Savage Pg 252
In the novel John struggles with his lust and love for Lenina. From the minute he sees her he instantly knows he loves her and wants to be with her forever. He views her as a goddess that he is unworthy of being with. Still he lusts for her and almost gives into this feeling a few times. This only causes him to hate himself more and he even tries to punish himself at points. He also gets frustrated with Lenina for not understanding his feelings for her. As she continues to throw herself at him it only frustrates him further both inside and out. he goes insane and even begins to hurt himself and others. He attempts to live in solitude and is still tormented by these feelings which eventually lead him to kill himself. Huxley's purpose of giving John this internal conflict is to reflect the conflicts every person feels between love and lust, between what you want right now and what's worth waiting for. It also represents how people can try as they might to run away from their problems but until you face them they will never go away. Huxley is making his audience see this through John's internal battle and possibly make them face their own issues.